Blizzard of 2015

I have sooo many half written posts that I need to finish up, but figured there’s no time like the present to at least post something! The blizzard of 2015, aka Juno, dumped about two feet of snow on us … it’s a winter wonderland out there and the boys and Bailey loved playing in the snow.  I forgot how excited Bailey gets about snow, and it was fun watching her enjoy herself – and make us all laugh in the process!

Snow Bailey
Leaping through the snow – she makes the same face when she goes swimming

Pat spent most of yesterday digging us out. The boys loved watching him with the snowblower and the end result (of round one) was rather pretty – which is easy for me to say, since I didn’t spend all those hours making it look that way:


Pete, James and I had yesterday and today off, which was such a nice treat. We knew about the storm ahead of time, so we were appropriately stocked with firewood and beer milk, bread and all the ingredients to make cookies, and made the best of being snowbound. Pete loves the snow, and loves being outside, no matter the conditions or the temperature. The minute we stepped outside, he launched himself (face first) into the snow. I don’t think he expected it to be so deep, because when he stood up, he said “umm, Mama? Who turned out the lights?” You did Pete. You did:

Who turned out the lights?!
Who turned out the lights?!

Pete desperately wanted to play with his toys in the shed, and gave it his all trying to dig them out. He made decent progress before tuckering himself out, and then brushed off my car “because Dada didn’t really do a good enough job” (really, he did) and climbed snow mountains:
There was so much snow that if we dropped James, there’s a good chance we would have lost him! Luckily, that didn’t happen 🙂 The little guy loved the snow at first, and tried to eat it by the fistful, but quickly tired of not being able to do a whole lot. He sure did look adorable though:


All in all, I’d say our first blizzard as MA residents was a success!

James – Eleven Month Update

Somehow, James is eleven months old. How that is even possible is beyond me … he is growing up way too fast and I’m not even close to ready for him to officially move from baby to toddler. James is a pretty happy little guy. He is sweet and funny but also Mr. Mischief. Pat and I often look at each other with raised eyebrows because James is Trouble. He is into everything, and no matter how sternly you tell him NO, he looks at you and smiles or laughs and then proceeds to do whatever it is he’s not supposed to be doing. I think he knows his smile is the cutest ever and he uses it to it’s full advantage! James has 5 teeth (three on top, two on the bottom), scoots like a mad man, crawls when he wants to, pulls up on everything and free stands quite a bit. He’s taken 2-3 steps at a time with no assistance, so I imagine he’ll be walking soon! He loves Pete and wants to do everything Pete does at all times. He also loves Bailey, and has recently discovered that she’ll eat right out of his hand. It makes him laugh like crazy and it makes Bailey pretty happy too! James also loves the bath. A surefire way to get him happy or calm is to bring him in the bathroom. He tries to jump in the tub and would stay in for hours if we’d let him. He is scary fearless and I think he’s going to give us a run for our money this summer! 11 months!! #seemsimpossible

James – Ten Month Update

Ten months old already! If time could slow down just a bit, I’d be very grateful.  James is the best. He makes us smile, laugh (and shake our heads) every day. He is funny, impish, adorable and sweet and it’s hard to imagine our little family before he was in it.  Poor James woke up with conjunctivitis the other day, but thus far has been handling it like a pro. He still has just two teeth, but when we were at the pediatrician’s office, she said she was pretty sure James would be getting some top teeth for Christmas 🙂 James  still crawls and scoots all over the place but pulls up on any object(s) he can too. He remains a mischievous little guy, but it’s balanced by his adorable sweetness at the same time.

Ten months old! #daylate #again #lovethiskid

He and Pete are best buds (and I’m working on a Pete at three and a half post!) I don’t have much experience with the brothers relationship, so it’s been fun for me to watch them together. I think having two boys is the best. And they seem to think so too, because they LOVE each other. James wants to do everything Pete does, and Pete is so good with his little sidekick. Life is pretty good 🙂

two heads are better than one!
two heads are better than one 🙂



James – Nine Month Update

Nine months old! I have no idea how it is possible … this year is just flying by. James continues to be a happy little guy. He loves food (and still screams if he isn’t fed fast enough) and will eat just about anything you put in front of him. At his 9 month appointment today, he weighed 19 lbs., 7 oz. and was 27.5 inches long – apparently that’s only the 15th percentile for height – but there is a lot of personality crammed into those inches! James has two teeth, crawls and scoots and LOVES Pete and Bailey. He has figured out how to climb the stairs already – he is Mister Mischief and I see a lot of gray hair in my future. We love our sweet little man so much!

Nine Months! #daylate #again #sohappy #love


James – Eight Month Update

James is eight months old! I say this every month, but time is moving way too quickly.  I cannot believe my littlest guy is 8 months old! James is sooo happy.  It is hard to believe that he is the same kid that cried and cried those first few months. He smiles and laughs so easily, and just loves to be around people. He also likes being the center of attention! James has two teeth and loves to eat anything and everything. We’ve still yet to identify a food he doesn’t like.  He gets very angry if he’s not fed quickly enough, and it’s pretty funny to watch. James is very adept at moving. He crawls backwards and army crawls forward. When he’s up on all fours, he tries to walk but obviously isn’t there quite yet.  James changes direction and position so quickly, it’s crazy. He does everything fast and furiously and I’m pretty sure he is going to be my daredevil/give mom a heart attack child. But he’s also sweet and cuddly and I am trying to soak it up as much I can.  And as evidenced by the picture below, James is just adorable and we love him so, so much.

8 months old! #daylate #pleaseslowdowntime #love

James – Seven Month Update

Somehow, seven months has passed since we met this adorable little guy. James is the best. He’s happy, shy, funny, loud and just too cute. He’s up on all fours and rocks back and forth, so he is going to be crawling in no time, which should be very interesting! He sits independently and tries so hard to pull himself up, but just isn’t there yet.  James has one tooth on the bottom, and is getting a second.  He loves to eat (he is definitely a Conroy!) and has yet to find anything he doesn’t like.  He is into everything and is very easily distracted, particularly when he’s nursing and having his diaper changed.  He’s quite the wiggle worm.  He laughs out loud all the time, loves to look at himself in the mirror and still thinks Pete and Bailey are the best. Pete certainly is, but the jury’s out on Bailey 😉 James has done very well adjusting to school, and his teachers love him.  They asked me if he was “experimenting with volume” at home.  I laughed and said that he certainly was – he yells all.the.time and loves it if anyone yells back. He’s such a mimic and plays little games with us copying our movements.  He still loves to cuddle, and my favorite thing is to rock him and nurse him before bed.  He’s been doing very well sleeping through the night, but dislikes napping, which is a-okay with me. We love our little Jimbo so much!

7 months old today! #jimbo #love

James – Six Month Update

James is six months old!  I have no idea how half a year has gone by already.  It’s frightening how fast the time goes. James had his six month check-up today; he weighed in at 17lbs. 6oz and 26″ tall! The doctor proclaimed him healthy and strong, music to my ears. James started eating solid food this weekend. He tried oatmeal, apples and sweet potatoes so far.  He doesn’t seem crazy about the sweet potatoes, but loved the apples!  James is such a happy baby now.  He had a very fussy few months, but now is all smiles and a pretty mellow guy.  James just started sleeping in his crib. We had tried a few times before, with little success.  But on Friday, we decided it was time.  And he did great! He fussed for 5 minutes, I went in to soothe him and then he just sucked on his little fingers, rolled over and fell asleep! He’s done great all weekend, so fingers crossed it is a trend that continues!

James babbles like crazy, drools like crazy and remains obsessed with Pete and Bailey.  He can sit on his own for short periods of time and then topples over, but is getting stronger every day.  He is very mobile and rolls all over the floor when he’s playing.  He tries to get up on all fours, so I think he’s pretty close to crawling!  We love our littlest man more than I ever thought possible.

Six months old today! Where does the time go?! #brothers #yelling #soloud

James – Five Month Update

Our littlest man is already five months old! How that is possible, I do not know. James is a happy, cuddly, sweet little baby.  His smile lights up a room and his laugh is awesome.  His eyes are a deep, deep blue and they twinkle when he smiles and I love it. James rolls over, grabs at his toys, puts everything in his mouth that he can and is drooling like crazy – I think he is teething, poor guy. He babbles constantly and has this raspy little voice.  It sounds like he is roaring sometimes and it’s so cute! I think he is just about ready to sit up on his own; he is so strong and it seems like his little muscles are always flexed. His little arms and legs shake when he is excited about something too! James is obsessed with his brother and Bailey, and I love watching their interactions. James dislikes his crib and sleeping through the night, but we’ll get there eventually … I hope. For now, I’m trying to savor those late night cuddles, because I know they won’t last forever.  We love our little buddy so much and really can’t imagine life before him!

Five months old! #timeflies

James – Four Month Update

Our littlest man is four months old!  James is growing and changing every day.  At his four month appointment last week, he weighed 15 lbs. 6 oz. and was 25.25 inches long.  That puts him right at the 50th percentile all the way around, but everyone that sees him comments on how big he is!  He’s “solid and strong” as the doctor said and we think he’s just perfect.Four months old! #daylate #bestsmile #lovehim

James smiles, laughs and “talks” so much every day.  He found his feet and his hands and both are constantly in his mouth. He’s starting to get pretty good at grabbing for a toy and putting it in his mouth too.  He actually fell asleep during his nap today holding his feet!  I guess he didn’t want to lose them?photo (55)

James can roll both ways, but much prefers to roll from back to front. He’s a happy little guy (most of the time) and keeps us on our toes with his sleep schedule – or lack thereof.  James gets a big kick out of Bailey and saves his biggest smiles for her and Pete.  He adores Pete and doesn’t take his eyes off him.  If he’s crying or sad, all it takes is one look at Pete to make him smile again.  It is so fun to watch their relationship develop. It’s hard to imagine what life was like before James arrived, it feels like he’s always been part of our family.  We love our little buddy so much and are excited for the months ahead!

Happy Birthday Brienna

Brienna would be five years old today.  Five. I can barely wrap my head around the fact that it’s been five years since I held her in my arms, breathed in her scent and tried to memorize every single feature on her little body.

Sometimes, I worry that I’m forgetting.  And yet, there are some moments that are etched in my brain with such clarity that I can relive them as if they were happening in real time. I will never forget the joy of finding out we were pregnant, or when we learned we were having a girl. I’ll never forget the heartbreak of finding out Brienna was sick. And I’ll certainly never forget being in labor, giving birth and then hearing the doctors tell us that she had no heartbeat. That our precious, teeny-tiny baby girl had died.


When I stop and let myself think about that day, really think about that day, the grief crushes me all over again.  Time marches on, but my heart still hurts.  And yet, loss and love are two sides of the same coin. Experiencing the pain of loss has made the experience of love that much richer … for us, they go hand-in-hand.

In years past, the anticipation of Brienna’s birthday felt harder than the actual day. But this year, today feels especially difficult and emotional. Five feels like a big milestone. As I watch my friends enroll their kids in kindergarten, I can’t help but wonder what Brienna would be like as a five year old.  Would she be loving Disney princesses and the movie Frozen? Probably. Would she be precocious and sweet like her little brother, Pete? Or would she be gentle and quick with a smile, like her littlest brother, James? It makes me so incredibly sad that we don’t get to know. But we do know that she is as loved as any little girl can be loved.

Beautiful flowers from great friends ...
Remembered with beautiful flowers from great friends …

We celebrate Brienna, because as sad as I am that she is not here and as much as my heart aches, I am so much better because of her.  Our family is stronger because of her.  So today, we did things to honor her memory.  We ran 6.2 miles for her 6.2 birthdate, we picked flowers for her bench and we ate mocha chip ice cream from Crescent Ridge because it used to make her dance.  And we spent a long time at the cemetery visiting our baby girl.

Brienna's 5th Birthday

It was an emotional day, but as I hugged Pete before bed and rocked James to sleep, I couldn’t help but smile through the tears.  I am so grateful to Brienna for the gift of herself. Happy 5th Birthday, our sweet Brienna Marie.  We love you and miss you so much.


 They say there is a reason,
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
Will change the way we feel.

No one knows the heartache,
That lies behind the smile,
No one knows how many times,
We have broken down and cried.

We want to tell you something,
So there won’t be any doubt.
You’re so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without.
 -Author Unknown